Originally posted by Brokenblade
I was up at the crack of dawn with my brother to deliver cards, typical it has to be raining windy and freezing cold, but it\'s all worth it.
Don\'t sweat it, I had TWENTY SIX inches of snow dumped on me Sunday, and we\'re still digging out! That\'s 2/3 of a meter for you Euro types. Got to just love the North-East, it\'ll be 90 degrees and we\'ll all be at the beach in just four months. lol
As far as V-day, I\'m starting to question what it\'s all about. I remember what it was like to be in love, but now I\'m not sure if what I have is the same thing. Don\'t get me wrong, I love my wife dearly... but where did that feeling go that we had in the beginning. You know the one where you want to be with the other person ever single second of every day. Was that just desire? or lust? Or is THIS true love? Sitting day after day looking at each other doing the same things. I used to say I couldn\'t imagine my life without my wife, but now I\'m contemplating \"the things that might have been\". Is love and being \"in love\" the same thing? Am I just here because I fear change? Or being alone? I would like to think this is what it was all about, but now I\'m not so sure. At 42, I think I\'m having a mid-life crisis, and it sucks because normally I am very sure of myself, but now I doubt every decision I make. After all, some little thing I do today could change my whole life ten years down the road. Any of you \'mature\' types go through this period? It\'s funny, I bought myself a convertible two years ago, owned it for one year, and only DROVE IT ONCE! My wife calls that my mid-life crisis, but I think that was just the beginning of something much darker and emotional. I\'m pretty sure she feels the same way... stuck in a rut, but I\'m not sure how we can get out of it.
I bought her a card and a chocolate heart, and we are going out to dinner tonight But that\'s what we do every year, and I\'m starting to feel we are just going through the motions.
To you younger folks out there - ENJOY! That wonderful feeling you get when you first go out with someone you\'re crazy about is an incredible thing, and if you don\'t enjoy yourself now you\'ll regret it and become one of those bitter old folks who chase kids off their lawn.
\"better to have love and lost...\"
Happy Valentine\'s Day!
