I cried today seeing the humanity in your responses and your desire to help.
The mental health services came around. I told them a few things about my childhood and I cried a lot more.
MJ had a crummy childhood was bullied by his dad and siblings, exploited and never had a childhood. That is why he was the way he was he was a lovely guy and I believe he was completely innocent and the media were out to get him and put him down out of jealousy and greed to sell stories and shame a great music legend who was a very troubled man who hated the colour of his skin and his nose so he had body dismorphic disorder. I too have suffered from this mental condition I believe that EVERYONE in our western society now has bdd because of the media.
Speaking of crappy childhoods Axel Rose of Guns and Roses was raped by his own biological dad :*(
If you're gonna edit my posts can you just cut out the parts that don't comply with the rules? I will read the rules after I post this I have never read them before.
This may seem random, and indeed it is imo quite random and a reaction to extreme stress and pressure. A Beatiful Mind forming theories and connecting dots to stay active and relieve the stress of complete isolation and find meaning in a troubled world.
I have been brainwashed by Christians and whoever else. i.e. the capitalist media. The Bible says "Love of Money is the route of all evil" which is Greed. Which is probably a natural strive for dominance over our environment which the Conservatives call "Survival of the Fittest" which is erroneously attributed to Darwin in popular culture which excuses the ruthless oppression of the many by the few, which is not popular in political propoganda but is very much an outlet of inescapable human nature, evolutionary psychology which wants us to produce as many children as we possibly can, and conversely, if we feel that we do not have the capacity to produce a lot of offspring, this can cause jealousy (as in the jealousy of celebrities such as Michael Jackson and Justin Bieber who are eccentric and VERY attractive to women because of their good looks and style and dancing ability (which incidentally shows deep down an excellent ability for martial arts and combat, because it uses the same motor neurons of the brain and the same intelligence which creates weapon skill (note also the complete lack of fear and anxiety in such men, because they have all the p*ssy in the world so why do they care about your opinion?))).
This jealousy is what I will call a bullying instinct where any person, and particularly the most able, the intelligent, the tall, the beautiful, the rare, the talented, will be put down by the majority of unintelligent scumbags that populate my county, Cumbria, which is full of inbred retards, and combined with a drinking dad who was himself in the shit in his childhood, being Irish in an English town during WWII, which was a time of rations and extreme poverty, when his dad spent money on booze and my dad had no shoes on his feet because of this drinking and was probably subject to horrendous verbal abuse and intimidation all the time as a lad, and turned out the same because he modelled himself on his dad subconsciously, which is what we a subconsciously doing because evolution has programmed us this way to survive because it is our parents who are most likely to look out for us.
Now my Grandad was in the IRA, I never met him, but I hear he fought against the Black and Tans, who were returned from the Somme and WWI where they did their bit for their country, and returned to a world that just ignored and exploited them and didn't even have jobs for them, SAME AS IS NOW FOR ME WITH AN OXFORD DEGREE. So I don't blame them that they were psychotic, now there were atrocities on both sides, and you can watch a movie about it, The Wind That Shakes the Barley.
How can I have a national identity? I can't it's silly. Britain is a tribal land. The celts here haven't changed since Roman times, always having a go at one another, and the Anglo Saxons keep all the power for themselves, and I've met a lot of them at Christ Church they SUCK B*LLS, they are predjudiced and biggoted against the poor AND they're racist, and they aren't any cleverer than working class people they are just a pretentious bunch of n*b ends with more money than sense and cocaine habits. Also they have extreme drinking habits and are often very depressed or bipolar.
Final exams at uni cause a lot of mental breakdowns and can cause mental illnesses that plague us for our whole lives, is it really worth it?
